Remember this post? Only six short days ago, and I’m already here to tell you that patience sucks.
I know, I know. It’s only been six days and I can’t learn patience fast – but I think I’m having a bit of an emotional breakdown.
My best friend, Principessa, is pregnant. She just found out yesterday. And, being in best-friend status, I found out yesterday… And, well… I’m sooo happy for them – but I’m also sooo jealous.
I want a baby so badly. And, I can’t have one. Not right now. And, as much as AMP says in a year and a few months we can get pregnant – I can’t honestly see us being out of debt by then – in which case, having a baby will mean making the choice to sell the house and move hours away from my friends and family… And I don’t know if I’m ok with that.
And, jealousy – it’s so unbecoming.
I’m tired of crying all the time. I’m tired of wanting a baby so badly it hurts…
I’m so tired.
That does suck. I wish I could give you some advice. But all I can do is listen with a sympathetic ear.
Thanks Fae. I appreciate the listening – there’s not many people in my real life that I talk to about this – so the support from all my bloggy friends makes a huge difference!
That does suck. Being happy for a friend when it stings in your deepest place of wanting – that also sucks.
And if you ever need a place to vent, we have a judgment free venting zone, frequently open Mondays, but truly – open year round. Life is hard. We all need to talk about it.
Thanks BLW. I may have to join in on the Judgment Free Venting Zone – it sounds wonderful. :)
oh hun I absolutely know how you feel *hug* I wish I could make you feel better
Thanks Livi! :)