Another “new” start

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I stepped on the scale yesterday and almost had a heart attack.  The number that flashed up at me was horrifying.  And, even with the necessary adjustments (considering daily fluctuation as it was 4 p.m. and not first thing in the morning when I usually weigh myself and the fact that I currently have my period), I still was very upset.  I am supposed to be losing weight, not gaining it.

But of course, to lose weight requires motivation and exercising and self-control.  Things I have not had or practiced in the past few months.  I haven’t even updated my Get Fit Challenge page since February.  And I think the last time I stepped foot in the gym was probably in February as well. 

And now, we’re in the second-to-last week of April and I still have lots of weight to lose before the summer.

Yesterday’s scale reading shocked me into my workout gear and to the gym.  I worked out for 30 minutes, which is a good starting point.  I did 20 minutes of cardio and ten minutes of circuit training.  Which I know isn’t enough to do anything.  Especially when I do it once every two months.

My goal for the first of May is to be doing 45 minutes of cardio, three times a week. I’ve also already started increasing my water intake and cutting out carbonated and sugary beverages, and taking fiber. 

Now, I just need to be more ‘selfish’ with my time and say no to things so I can get my butt to the gym.

Late, as always…

I’m late with this… Eight days late to be exact.

I have to say, so far, I’m doing nothing towards making my goal, except for the vague plan to get to the gym at some point today.  Starting next week I need to get my butt in gear.  But to take note of any progress, or lack of, we’ll have to measure out the starting point… So, here is where I bare myself…

	Goal	Current	Change	Left to goal:
Weight	125 lbs	139 lbs	n/a	14 lbs
Chest	36 in	-	n/a	-
Abs	26 in	-	n/a	-
Hips	36 in	-	n/a	-
Thighs	18 in	-	n/a	-
Calves	14 in	-	n/a	-
Arms	10 in	-	n/a	-
BMI	22.9%	25.4%	n/a	2.5%

I can’t find my measuring tape, so I’ll have to add the other measurements later, and the goal measurements may have to be altered after that, but at least I took a good first step towards accountability. 

Now to get to myself to the gym!

Plateau-ing

Since losing the first 7 lbs, I seem to have completely plateau-ed, and have not lost a single pound or inch since.  The past few months have been pretty busy, which makes getting to the gym harder, and more grabbing food on the go, which is not conducive to losing weight, or being healthier.

I would love to lose a few more pounds, or, eleven.  I would like to weigh 125, which seems to be an ideal weight given my 5’2” frame.  AMP says I’ll be too skinny then, but that was the same weight I was when we first started dating, so I’m sure he’ll like how I look just fine at that weight.  Although, I’m trying not to focus too much on the number – I’d be okay with being even 130 lbs, if my thighs didn’t touch, my stomach was flat and I was toned all over.   

This past weekend, AMP and I signed up for a gym membership.  I already had one, but it was a women’s-only gym, so I decided to cancel it so that AMP and I could work out together.  I’m not sure what I was thinking, because that means getting up for 6 a.m. workouts three times a week.  We were supposed to start that yesterday, but neither one of us set an alarm for the morning, and we ended up sleeping in – but we did go work out together last night. 

It was great to get to spend some time alone with AMP.  He’s wanted to get in shape again for a long time, but while he was in school there was no room in his schedule for exercise.  So now that he’s finally done school, he can work out again, and hopefully that’ll give him more energy and decrease his stress levels.

And, maybe this will finally make me into a morning person?!  I’m one of those people who need 9-10 hours of sleep, otherwise I resemble a zombie (not the people eating kind though), but AMP can survive on 6-7 hours sleep, and is almost always raring to go in the mornings.  I know he wishes I’d get up earlier with him so we could have breakfast together, so maybe if I get into the habit of getting up for the gym, it’ll spill into everyday life.

 I wouldn’t hold my breath on that though.

What & Why

What I’m Working on This Week

1. Making a conscious effort to see things from the other person’s point of view   **Tried to work on this one – didn’t help that my amazing MIL agrees with everything I say and feel – have I mentioned how I think she’s awesome?!

2. Clean my house before my MIL arrives    **actually got this one done**

3. Go to the gym more than once this week    **twice is better than only once – and better than nothing at all**

4. Stop raving & ranting about things I can’t change   **Totally need to still work on this one**

5. Look into seeing a therapist to deal with no. 4  **Ditto above**

Why It’s Hard

1. I don’t want to always have to be the “bigger person” and I’m pretty sure some people aren’t putting much, or any, effort into seeing things from my point of view (and no, I’m not referring to you AMP! Seriously! I’m not! I promise!)

2. This week is super-busy with lots of running around – and the house is a mess.  A total mess.  The kind that will take me two hours of cleaning to eradicate.  Two hours I’m not sure I have.  And I still don’t know where my MIL is going to sleep as her youngest son has already taken over the guest room, and I feel bad putting her on a retarded air mattress squished between bookshelves and a computer desk in the computer room…

3. See part a of above.  And cleaning should take priority.. So maybe I should change it to “Try to go to the gym at least once this week.”

4. Um.. Because our old landlord is douche who drives me up the wall – and a stupid one at that who hasn’t realized yet that I’m smarter than him and keep proof of his stupidity; my parents are replacing me with my soon-to-be sister-in-law; I’m related to stupid people…and so on and so forth – And if I let these words get stuck in my head they keep looping around till I’m crazy – so it’s better to get them off my chest.  Maybe I should write them? But doesn’t that still count as ranting & raving? 

5. Um.. Not sure how that would go over with AMP – and not sure if I’m willing to sacrifice spending money for clothes and books just to have someone being paid to listen to me and not allowed to argue with me!  Though I’ll have to give it more thought…

mrs. failure

Two months ago, I had made a goal. It wasn’t vague. It was specific and clear, as you can see here. 

According to that, I should now be 137 lbs. 

That means I have lost 0 lbs in the past 2 months.  I guess I should be happy that I haven’t gained any weight, but couldn’t I have at least gotten under 140 lbs?  It’s depressing.  I’ve been attempting the gym, but it’s impossible.  Now, with the latest disaster of my grandfather being in an hospital an hour away, it’s slipping further and further away.  I wanted to be down to 134 by the end of this month, before our anniversary weekend.

I weighed myself this morning and I am 142 lbs.

Instead, I’ll still be the same weight.  Maybe if I eliminate all junk food, I can make it down to 140 by the end of this month.  And I can push myself to go to the gym 5x a week for the next 4 weeks.  Maybe!  I’ll have to give up my sleeping in till 8 to make it work, but I can sleep once I’ve reached my goal! 

Hopefully…

the undomestic housewife