Remember this post? Only six short days ago, and I’m already here to tell you that patience sucks.
I know, I know. It’s only been six days and I can’t learn patience fast – but I think I’m having a bit of an emotional breakdown.
My best friend, Principessa, is pregnant. She just found out yesterday. And, being in best-friend status, I found out yesterday… And, well… I’m sooo happy for them – but I’m also sooo jealous.
I want a baby so badly. And, I can’t have one. Not right now. And, as much as AMP says in a year and a few months we can get pregnant – I can’t honestly see us being out of debt by then – in which case, having a baby will mean making the choice to sell the house and move hours away from my friends and family… And I don’t know if I’m ok with that.
And, jealousy – it’s so unbecoming.
I’m tired of crying all the time. I’m tired of wanting a baby so badly it hurts…
I’m so tired.