I’ve been reading ‘Two is Enough: A Couple’s Guide to Living Childless by Choice’ by Laura Scott.
Even though we’re already trying to have a baby – I thought I’d read about why people would choose not to have one. There were many different reasons people made the choice to not become parents – and some of them do appeal to me. Does that mean I made the wrong decision?
This is not something that I can take back – and I’m terrified.
But I also think it’s absolutely normal to be terrified when making such a huge decision.
I want a child. I do. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t scare the crap out of me.
I know my life is going to change forever – and I can’t wait – but I’m also a little sad. Especially on lazy mornings spent in bed, or low key evenings vegging out in front of the television. But, I still want a baby.
Am I nuts?
Or is it normal?
One of the people surveyed in the book talked about the ‘puppy test’. Basically, get a puppy – and if you still want to have a kid – then have a baby. We did that. And I still want a baby.
But is it a case of wanting what I don’t have?
I don’t think so.. but who knows if I’m just fooling myself.